The number one question everyone asks me is, "How do you feel...are you SO ready to be done?" Up until today, I've felt pretty well still and have had no desire for this pregnancy to end quite yet. I really wanted to be able to finish the semester before the little guy comes. Yesterday, I had an appointment with Wendy and I finally agreed to let her check me. I hadn't wanted her to check me at previous appointments because I didn't want to know whether or not I was dilated, cause to me, it made no difference. You can be dilated for weeks before giving birth, or you can be not dilated at all, and give birth that day. I didn't want to find out I was dilated and then be stressing every day about whether I would pop a baby out at any moment. Well, she checked and I'm 2cm dilated and about 50% effaced. She said, "That's great! But not so great if you're hoping to make it another two weeks!" So basically, she said I could "go any time now." I know there is truly no way of knowing, but I'm starting to think that she may be right. Not to get too graphic, but things are starting to get going, I think. I'm pretty sure I've been losing my mucus plug and having bloody show since yesterday. And that's all I will say about that! I didn't really sleep at all last night and was having a lot of pain and pressure "down there." This morning was the first morning that I've woken up and really felt like crap. It got better during the day, but I was very nauseous in the morning.
Other than the last day or so, things were going really well and I was still feeling as close to great as I can at this point. Not much more weight gain (I'm at a total of about 18 pounds right now), no swelling, no stretch marks that I can see, and no heartburn, really. I do take Tums once in awhile before bed just in case. I've been having a lot of painless Braxton Hicks, although I have some mystery pain in my pelvis when the baby moves a lot. I don't think those are contractions, though. I had one episode of pain and cramping in my side and left half of my lower stomach, and I thought it might be the start of labor, but I went to bed and was fine in the morning. Speaking of bed, I'm not sleeping very much at all anymore, but I still manage to make it through most days without a nap! I'm not working anymore, so I've been able to sleep in some mornings, which is so great (even though it's still only till about 8am).
I've officially been "nesting" like crazy (I hate that word) and was being so productive with doing laundry, cleaning, organizing, etc. Jon thinks it's so funny. He said to me one morning, "Wow, you actually woke up and started cleaning...you really ARE nesting!" I'm feeling like I have a lot less energy these last few days though, which I hope changes cause I still have a lot to do. We do have mostly everything ready for when Evan gets here, but I'd at least like to have all his stuff put away and the house sort of clean when he's born.
Evan is kicking away, as always. It really hurts a lot now when he moves. There's just no room for him! I can't wait to meet him and kiss his little toes that have been jabbing me for all these months :) I think he possibly may have dropped a tiny bit, even though Wendy said he's not locked and loaded yet, but my ribs hurt a little less and I can breathe a little bit better.
It's really starting to hit me that we are inevitably going to have a baby soon...really soon! It's not months, or even weeks away anymore. It could happen at any time, and it's so crazy to think about. I'm excited and a bit nervous, but mostly just feeling really excited and determined. I'm not looking forward to the pain, but I just keep reminding myself that pain = baby, and that it's only temporary pain. After watching so many women give birth in the hospital, while on drugs, and strapped down to a bed, I feel so great about my decision to stay home and be able to move around freely while I labor. I think that will make a huge difference in how my labor progresses.
Oh, and one last thing (I think)...Maci TOTALLY knows that she's not going to be the baby for much longer. She's been extra snuggly and sweet. I love it! I feel bad for her though, that she has such a big adjustment coming her way. I want to make sure to make her feel loved and included, even after Evan is born. I was telling her today that she and Ev are going to grow up together and be best friends. I'm so excited for our little guy to have a pup that he gets to spend his childhood playing with. And yes, we still have Tucker...but I don't even want to go there. He drives me insane and I seriously consider letting him go almost daily.
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